ThreeLittleBirds

it's only been about an hour and a half since i last saw jay and i already miss him like crazy. i've gotten so used to sleeping next to him these last few days and now that he's not here i feel so lonely. he's only right down the road and i'll see him in a few hours but still i hate it. you would think that this would be a piece of cake considering all the time spent away from each other during his deployments. i just have to keep reminding myself that the longest we'll be apart from now on will be the 11 days when i move from ca to pa.

so i've been in hawaii now for 9 days and i've only been to the beach once. and that time that we went didn't really count because by the time we actually sat down to lay out the sun was starting to set. we attempted to go to the beach this past saturday but it freak'n rained the entire day. we ended up eating and shopping in waikiki since we couldn't go to the beach. jay needed new clothes since he doesn't have much except for a few pairs of jeans and those billabong t-shirts with half naked girls on them. i, the evil wife that he says i am, made him try on so many things. i even convinced him to try on 7 jeans. he couldn't believe how much a pair cost, but after a little persuasion i convinced him to get a pair. hehehe:)

since i've been here in hawaii i've been pretty good about working out. i was kinda weary about going to the gym on base but once i got there i was pleasantly surprised. the gym is actually pretty nice with up to date equipment. they have my big stair climber thingy so that made me happy:-)

oye, my head and neck is starting to hurt. i think it's time for bed. nighty night

i arrived here in hawaii on the 15th and i'm having a great time. it's been so nice being able to spend time with jay. i hadn't seen him in 2 months. all i can say is that everything is PERFECT and i've never been so happy:)

the house that i'm staying at is absolutely beautiful. it's right outside of the base about 3 minutes away. the view is from the lanai is gorgeous. it overlooks the bay. the best way to describe it is WOWWWWW.

anyway, i just got back from the gym and now i gotta get a shower.

arghhhhh, i hate moving. i have so much to do. i need to get all my stuff packed by saturday before i leave for hawaii because as soon as i get back i'm off to pennsylvania. i return from hawaii late on the 1st, the moving people are coming to get my stuff on the 2nd, and me and amy are leaving early morning on the 3rd to drive across country. we're making a detour down to texas for our friend's wedding on the 5th. from there we'll just take our time and enjoy our road trip to see the country. it should be interesting.

the estimates for these moving companies are so random. the prices ranging from $1,100-$6,000. wtf? you would think they would be pretty similar but come on now, almost a 5,000 difference? geesh.......

once we get to PA then we'll be busy house hunting. in the meantime we'll be staying with jay's mom. he doesn't have to check in until dec. 1st so we'll have a couple of weeks to find a place. he'll be in PA sooner than me so he'll get a head start and start looking for a home. he wishes he could stationed closer to his hometown but a 2 hour drive isn't bad.

so amy will probably stay with me in PA for a couple of weeks. she's going to help me get settled in. plus, we both really want to see the east coast so we'll probably take some trips to mass, ny, and the surrounding new england states.

yesterday was my last day at work........what a big sigh of relief.

well i guess this is my long awaited update. so much has happened these last few months. i don't even know where to begin.

first off, jay finally came home in june from afghanistan. homecoming was awesome. amy and i spent a week in hawaii and we had such a blast. jay came back to california with me for a 10 day leave. during that time we got married! we were married july 1st in reno in some little chapel. the whole eloping thing was so cheesy that we just laugh about it....... a limo comes and picks u up at the hotel. they drive u to the court house to pick up a marriage license and then they drive u to the little chapel where they perform the ceremony. the minister was this old man with bushy eyebrows and beady eyes. the entire situation was so corny that we just giggled throughout the entire ceremony. after the ceremony they take u back to where they picked u up from........ we're still planning a real wedding may 27, 2006 in hawaii. this one will be for family and friends since no one was there with us when we got married.

jay went back to hawaii about a week after we got married and i stayed here in california. so jay only planned on taking a 10 day leave right after his return from afghanistan. this way he could take 3 weeks leave in july/aug and go home to attend his sister misty's wedding on aug 6. the wedding never happened. misty unexpectedly passed away july 21st. when jay called me early thursday morning and told me that misty died, my heart just broke. i couldn't believe what was happening. the timing of it all. it was just all so surreal. i spent 3 1/2 weeks in pennsylvania with jay and his family. he stayed a little over a month. everyone is dealing with misty's death their own way. all i can do is just be there for him and his family.

jay re-enlisted for another 4 years with the marine corps last year when he was in iraq. originally, he was going to stay in hawaii and join a non-deployable unit. i was going to move out there around this time now to be with him. after misty's death we both decided that it was probably best that we go back east to be closer to his family. since his contract was still open they found him a duty station in harrisburg, pa which is about 140 miles from his hometown. it's still a bit far but it sure hell is a lot closer than hawaii.

so that's where i'm at now. i've put in my 2 weeks notice at work and i'm getting ready for my move in november. i'm excited that we'll finally be together permanently. i have mixed emotions about moving. it's a little scary knowing that i'll be so far from home, away from my friends and family. i guess this will just be a new adventure.

i've been mia and have neglected my journal for the past 2 months. i just need to blow off the dust and start writing again. writing in this thing is therapy for me. there's so much that has happened these last couple of months that i don't even know where to begin. these last two months have been an emotional roller coaster. it's been filled with a lot of happiness and a lot tragedy. when i get a little more time i'll fill in the details. but for now it's off the the gym..........

i'll be on a plane to hawaii exactly one week from today. woohoo!!!!! i can't wait...................

i'm going to hawaii in less than 3 weeks. i'll be there for 8 days. i'm so excited!!!! i get to see my baby. i'm so freakin' ecstatic! i'm nervous at the same time just because it's been so damn long since i've seen him. but once i'm in his arms all of the nervousness will go away. wow, it's hard to believe we've already gone through 3 deployments in 2 years. the last 2 were back to back, only 3 weeks apart. after this, hopefully no more, atleast not for a while. we need time to be together, to be a couple.

amy bought her ticket yesterday for hawaii. i'm so happy she's going with me. the last time we went to hawaii this past september we had such a blast. i love that girl. i was kind of nervous about going to hawaii by myself and being alone because as of now i still don't know the exact date that jay will be home. i only have the flight window and his leave date. now with her going i'll have someone to hang out with while i'm waiting for him to arrive and while he's working. he has to work everyday that he's back until he gets leave so that kinda sucks. but afterwards i'll have him all to myself ::evil smirk::

jay will be flying back to cali with me when i go home. he'll be here for about 2 weeks. then he'll go back to hawaii for about 3 weeks. then he'll fly back to cali where we'll meet up and fly to pennsylvania together for his sister's wedding. it's going to be a busy one for the next few months.

ok, i gotta go to the gym and work my little butt off. yuck!

i'm so happy i have a 4 day weekend!!!!! i need a freakin' break from that place. YAYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!! ok, that's all.

amy just called and said that she talked to jason who plays for the dodgers. he wants us to go to the giants/dodgers game tonight and is leaving 4 tickets at the will call window. maybe i'll ask alicia and sylvia if they want to go since we have 2 extra tickets. i'm excited since i haven't been to a game yet this season. i looooove the giants. sorry jason but i'm going to have to root for the giants tonight. the game starts at 7:05 so we'll probably leave here maybe 5'ish incase of rush hour trafffic. we should be in san francisco before the game starts.

ok, gotta get in the shower.